08/09/08/09/08/09

i.am.actually.panicking.

i really am.

where did the year go??

i feel like i'm floating .... everything feels odd. surreal.

i clearly remember counting down to 2008, watching the fireworks in london. and now there are just 2 days left of 2008. how can it be???!?!?!?!

hold on.

i'm not ready. or am i??

i thought i was ready. wasn't i? if i were, why am i hyperventilating? why is my heart beat double the usual? why am i writing incoherent thoughts down? why am i babbling??

i'm gasping for breath. my heart is going at a 1000 miles per second. i'm ... trying to breathe.

oh dear. wait!! why am i NOT ready for 2009? wasn't i? i like the idea of a brand new year. i like the idea of an unknown. it's supposed to be exciting. it's going to be a GREAT year! so why am i stalling?

i actually feel like grabbing the hems of 2008 [if it's wearing a skirt] and not letting go. hey. 2008 was great. but ... oh ... well .... wait!!!

ok. wait!

i guess i'm not ready.

darn.