the way i am

i wish i love you more, i wish i obey you more

i wish i surrender more than i fight, i wish i submit more than i question

searching for you, i wondered at myself.

going around in circles, when ever is the end

someone once told me, if You didn't want me to be this way, You wouldn't have created me so.

so maybe, i might wish i'm more like her. i might wish i'm more like him. at the end of the day, surely You didn't make any mistakes in making me this way. surely You knew what You were doing.

so maybe, it's time i learn to accept and love myself the way i am.