and so He will

i haven't been around ... and i wish it was because i'm having an amazing-whirlwind social life. but no. it was back to the hospital. in and out. and ... lots of sitting around. lots of deep breathing. lots of waiting.

anyway, part I of the operation is done. and successfully so. now it's on to the tougher part, which no, i will not mention because i'm trying not to think about it now.

but you know what? He works in mysterious ways. throughout the ordeal, i never allowed myself to question Him. i mean, what for? it's a fact and there's no point asking why. i rather deal with it and face what i can change instead. so yes, i never berated Him or yelled at the injustice and difficulty of the journey but of course, i wish things were simpler. i wish things were easier.

in time, i've come to befriend the professors and doctors who worked on dad. not all, but those who really mattered and play a big part in dad's operation and monitoring of his condition. they go way beyond the call of duty. they have been personally caring, attentive and never once lost their patience with me, despite my endless questions and interrogations. in fact, one of them actually did an extremely noble and generous thing today.

and so here i'm thinking, while i may not see the future and i can not even imagine what tomorrow will be like, i guess i can and i should, trust that when it comes to things that count, HE surely WILL.NOT.fail.me.

even if i wonder. even if i worry. and even if i doubt and run away in denial, HE can't go back on His words. He said He will take care of me. and so He will.