all it takes ....

sometimes i wonder why my road seems to be so darn tough.

it's one climb after another. often, especially lately, i feel as if i'm knocking on a wall. an insurmountable, impenetrable wall. no amount of kicking, yelling and frustrated gestures seem to make a dent. not even a scratch.

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."

my road is definitely narrow and tough.

years ago, i found the gate. joyously i entered it.

but now i'm thinking to myself, gosh.... staying on it is the tough part man.

of course i'm on it. of course i'm staying but ... wow. tough doesn't even begin to describe the road.

and i thought i went through fire. compared to this, the tests before are like playing in the kiddy pool.

but i guess, like He also said, i should fix my eyes on the end. think of the cloud of witnesses. think of Him and just Him alone. think of the One standing at the right hand, waiting ... welcoming.

perhaps that's why He said, fix. your. eyes. on. Him.

fixing definitely requires concentration.

maybe ... maybe i can't see the end now.

but no one can say i didn't try.

no one can say i didn't wait.

all it takes is just to stay and believe.