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at times, i feel like giving up. caving in to the darkness around, i imagine myself shoving everything to the ground. to hell with it all, i don't want to care. i don't want to feel. i give up - do you care?

to me, the glass is always half full. knowing His word, i know very well His promises and having experienced Him, i never doubted His existence. i know He is real. i know He never lies. so despite what i feel, despite what happens, i persistently cling to what He said.

from the very beginning, i was taught to not look at 'the world'. i was schooled to not let circumstances and life dictate what i feel. so personally, i always chose to believe. i always chose to hope. i always chose to stand on His word.

they say i'm always cheerful. they say i never seem to have problems or stress. yes. not because i'm deluded, not because i really do not have any worries.

rather, i know to set my mind on things above.

still, at times, i'm tempted to yell. i'm tempted to lash out and ask, where is the justice of it all? where is the logic of it all? and most importantly, where is the purpose of it all.

anyway, i'm rambling.

as the clock strikes twelve, another day dawns.

another moment has passed.

and again i tell myself, His Word endures.

so yes, let's start again.